The search and wandering continues in my dreams…..Will I ever stop trying to protect or find someone or something? Do you ever dream like this?
Beginning to dream in color. Have I done this before?
Some nights I see my family around me as we accomplish simply going to a store. We spend so much time picking out just the right small jeweled purses for the girls and expensive backpacks for the boys. I remember seeing the colors of the jewels and pictures on the backpacks.
Can not find my way home. Lost in a place I don’t recognize with my family.
When we are in the car, we are lost. I have to painstakingly retrace our steps. They rely on me to get us back home. They all sit calmly talking, expressing no fear. I drive up and down roads, over hills, on streets I don’t recognize.
This dream was great, until the end.
One night, we were at a water park with tunnels underground and above our heads. There were no stairs, just spiraling ramps to walk you up and down to the different levels. People laughing and playing. Then…
Trying to find and protect my family.
Day turned in to night. Me? I was navigating. Each and every turn. Working so hard just to get back on the water tunnels and slides. My family was getting further away.
Obstacles in my path.
Making my situation worse, I was not wearing just a bathing suit. I was covered in a giant snow suit, lugging a couple of large inner tubes. that became obstacles in my path…..